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Susan Hayase - Part 2 of 2

Date: March 21, 2023
Interviewer: Yvonne Kwan and Ellina Yin
Interviewee: Susan Hayase (1956 - )

Transcript of Susan Hayase

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(Interviewer) I want to pick up on a question about your appointment to President Clinton's Civil Liberties Public Education Fund (CLPEF) board. How did you get appointed? What was the what was the work that you did? And also, you know, if there was something that you could change, what what kind of what modifications would you have wanted to do?

Well, let's see. I think people started talking about the CLPEF in about, I don't know, maybe 93 or 94, and I had heard that that that there were some people already kind of tagged for the for the commission. And so I, I decided though that I knew somebody in Oakland who was going to put their hat in the ring. And so I decided to do it too. And so I wrote up kind of in Japanese community activity resume for myself and I. The other person in Oakland was also representing NCRR, and so we wanted to make sure that somebody from the NCRR got on this commission. NCRR is the National Coalition for Redress and Reparations. And so I did. And, you know, time goes by and at some point, I was informed that I was going to be vetted for, you know, this position. And so I went through this vetting procedure. The FBI has to vet you and let's see. So I found out that I think that I, I think that the people who were forming the board wanted Fred Korematsu, but he didn't want to do it. So there was an open spot. And then somebody I think they wanted Cherry Kinoshita from the JACL, and she didn't want to do it. And so there was still an open spot. And so I got the open spot. So let's see. So, but, but I was the only NCRR person on there. So. So that was good to get an NCRR person on the board.

So I went through this vetting process and a long, long period of time went by. I don't know if you remember, but the GOP was blocking President Clinton's appointments to everything, and he was having to do recess appointments for everything, basically. And so we were appointed during the recess, and that was all our all of our appointments, even the renewal of our appointments were all done during the recess. So so we never went through a Senate confirmation. Let's see. So when when we finally met the people on the Civil Liberties Public Education Fund board, I think it was pretty clear that people wanted Dale Minami to chair the commission. And I put my name forward to vice chair and so nobody else wanted to do it. So, so I did that. And to me it was really important to try to represent the positions of the National Coalition for Redress Reparations. We were a nationwide grassroots organization, and we had a we played a big role in the redress movement. So it seemed that that was really important. There were former incarcerees on the board, there were Don Nakanishi from UCLA was on the board, Dale and--I'm going blank. Anyway, the corim nobis cases were represented and there were some, there was a Elsa Kudo from representing the Latin Americans, Peruvians was represented, and there was some geographical representation. But I felt it was really important to represent the NCRR. So I had like meetings, public meetings in San Jose to bring back reports and what we were doing and get input. So that was really important to me.

Let’s see. So our-- we were charged with republishing the CWRIC, Commissioner of Wartime Internment and Relocation of Civilians. A report final report. So we published that: “Personal Justice Denied.” And we also had some funds to do a grant program for public education. We produced a PSA. We also did on my initiative, we organized a National Day of Remembrance, and and we did this educational grant program. We had a and educational curriculum summit. And we tried to make a statement about terminology, updating euphemistic terminology through this grant program. And I think there were about almost 150 grants given out. So that was a that was a big accomplishment that we had to do in basically two years. We had to do all those things in two years because the bill would sunset in 1998. I think one of the big contributions that this board made, I think because of the composition of the board, we were able to deal with divisive issues in the community. There were organizations who were unhappy about the grant program and, you know, some of the grant decisions, and I think that we were able to deal with these in a very fair and nonsectarian way. So that was, I think, a big accomplishment.

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In the lead up to Trump's election, the 2016 campaign, you know, lasted for two years. Right. And I think that the there was growing racism, especially a lot of anti-Muslim hate. There were a lot of people starting to try to say that what happened to Japanese Americans should happen to Muslims. I think there were a lot of people starting to say, hey, that was a good idea. You know, politicians were starting to say things like that and, uh, what Tom and I decided Tom and I were not involved in an organization at that time, and we wanted to start things going, though we felt that there were a lot of people in the Japanese American community who had been involved in the Redress and Reparations Movement who would agree that this was really important. But somebody had to do something to to try to start making things happen. And one of the things that Tom and I did was we organized something that we kind of facetiously called the Sansei unFocus Group. And our idea was to get together all the sansei that we knew who were kind of connected to the redress movement and to different community activities and to see where people were at and to see if people, you know, wanted to start coming back and getting involved again.

And so that was one thing. And then we also initiated a community program to talk about this growing intolerance, and that was participated in by all the Japanese American organizations in the Japantown area. And we also when Trump was elected, we initiated a program called the The Unity Pledge Project, and we designed a tag that was modeled after the tags that Japanese Americans wore in camp, and it had a pledge on it and said, I pledge to stand up against Trump's policies. I stand up against the Muslim ban. Well, there was no ban at that time, but against the Muslim registry, against deportations. And we printed those out and we started taking them to marches, immigrant rights marches and to like the Korematsu Day program and to the Women's March. And they were wildly popular because I think the election of Trump really, you know, hit people hard and realized that I have to do something and I'm against the policies that he's promoting. I'm against the incredible bigotry that he's promoting. And so people just lined up. And we were also working with the ACLU, Santa Clara Valley chapter at the time, too. And we would do tabling and people would come up and our tags were flying off the presses. But they were we had we had people sign them and hang them up on this structure.

And so that was one of the things that we realized that that actually for a long time, I think people are go along with the status quo. They don't really it's like the frog in the pot. You don't kind of realize how hot the water temperature is getting. But I think the election of Trump really made a difference to a lot of people. And so we were also part of in the North Bay, an organization called Nikkei Resisters started and we were kind of part of that, but it's kind of far. So we drove to some meetings, but and we were working with Nikkei progressives in Los Angeles also. And and we started doing projects with the Japanese American Museum of San Jose. I don't know how to make this sound. It all actually makes sense. We were trying to build something basically. So one of the things that we Tom and I realize is that there there is kind of like a mental block in a lot of people's minds in the Japanese American community about, you know, we just talk about Japanese Americans, you know, and in this acceleration of bigotry.

Right. People were using the incarceration of Japanese Americans as like a rallying point to, you know, to discriminate against other people. But but it wasn't aimed at Japanese Americans. Right. So I think one of the things that we did was we said, you know, one of the communities that's really being targeted by Trump and by the right wing is the immigrant Latino community. And in San Jose, the Japanese American community has sort of had a long relationship with the Mexican American community in the canneries, in agriculture. And so we started a two program series called Don't Exclude US, #Don't Exclude US. And we showed that the oppressive history against Japanese Americans was very similar to that, against Mexican Americans. We showed the we brought a professor from Southern California to talk about the Mexican repatriation or the so-called repatriation, because what it was, was government sanctioned deportations where they would just round people up in the streets and stick them on a train and dump them in Tijuana. And two thirds of the people that were deported in this way were American citizens. They were actually this was in the 1930s. And a lot of these kids were like the contemporaries of Nisei, you know, same generation. They were children of immigrants born here and U.S. citizens. And so we we had that program, we called it “And I never saw my father again.”

And we felt that it had encroached able resonance for Japanese Americans, but also for Mexican Americans. And we had another follow up program about the Chinese Exclusion Act and the Muslim ban and what we were trying to do was bring Japanese Americans into this fight that that it's you know, it's our fight. It's it's almost indistinguishable. Like one of the most dramatic things that we saw was Professor Balderama showed us two photos side by side. One was loading Japanese Americans into the trains for the camps, and the other one was loading Mexican Americans onto the trains for Tijuana. And they're indistinguishable. I mean, the people look the same, and it's just, you know, it it makes you realize that we're all in this together. And so we really started pushing for people to start thinking solidarity, you know, what is actual solidarity mean and what's the role of Japanese Americans?

So meanwhile, this organization was starting in San Francisco, and Tom and I were trying to figure out, you know, what should we do? We need to do something. And we looked at the existing organizations in San Jose, and, you know, we had been very deeply involved in the Nihonmachi Outreach Committee during the 1980s, and we thought, oh, should we go to NOC and see if they want to do this new thing and or should we form our own? And we thought about it for a while and at some point we just decided we're going to just form our own organization. And it happened at the Issei Memorial Building. A person that we know who was working with the San Jose JACL, Sue Uyen, organized and this is after Trump was elected, organized a community day, and a lot of people from multiple different communities.

I think this was advertised at the Day of Remembrance possibly, but a lot of people came and the idea was to talk about different ideas of what to do. And so I just, you know, raised my hand and said, I'm going to whoever wants to help me form San Jose Nikkei Resisters come out to the patio. And so a lot of people came out and there's actually Sue. I'm so grateful she took a picture. So there's some evidence that this happened. And that was the beginning of San Jose Nikkei Resisters. And we were not actually the same organization as the East Bay one. They kind of took off in a different direction. But we're a multi-generational grassroots community organization. The core came out of the San Jose Redress Reparations movement. So a lot of the people that we worked with are from from there. But we also attracted some people who were not involved in the redress movement. We had people who were in camp, we had people who were from Gen X, you know, kind of in their forties, fifties. And then we had some millennials and we started our first thing to do was we really wanted Japanese Americans to show up at these immigration rights rallies and at these meetings of the Board of Supervisors to defend the sanctuary policy of Santa Clara County and different issues like that, because I think we felt that it's it's really important that Asians be seen together as a group, you know, opposing these bigoted policies. And so and that's part of fighting the model minority strategy. And it's also part of fighting the isolation and the dispersal of Asian Americans so that you've got to stand together and to do something. And I think that I feel that the vast majority of Asian Americans lean to progressive politics and are fair minded and democracy minded.

But I think that you have to you have to show people that and you have to make sure that people recognize that you can't just sit at your home and have your progressive opinion. You have to get out there and do something and so that was the beginnings of San Jose Nikkei Resisters. And our our mission was to unite and mobilize the Japanese American community. And that's actually really important because a lot of people, when they organize, they they I think what they're thinking in their head is I'm going to get together a little group of people and we're going to just have put out a really progressive position and that's it. And I think the thinking is, is that automatically everybody will rally to us. But I think that what we felt was really important, you have to consciously say, I'm going to unite people, you know, and the community is very diverse. So it's not like we're all the same and it's not just attracting the people who are all the same. You know, we're going to unite this broad community on certain things, and then we're going to try to mobilize people. You know, we're not going to just, I don't know, be an example. You know, we actually want to build something. So that was that was what we did. Yeah.

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The reason that I, I don't like those standing on shoulders idea is because it kind of assumes that you can only learn from people who are long dead and it separates you from seeing what's around you in the moment in the present. Right. And it also assumes that you're just really-- well, it, it I think it's very passive, right? It says like, I can only learn from these giants who somebody else has decided is a giant. Right. And somebody wrote a book about this person. So they're validated for me. You know, they're approved. But I think that people have to. So the stand on the shoulders of giants eliminates the possibility of building a collective memory. So in order to build a collective memory, you have to directly engage with people of all ages. And it doesn't just flow in one direction, it flows in all directions. There's a lot of little swirls and eddies. So young people have to be curious enough and assertive enough and brave enough to go approach the crotchety old person. Right? The crotchety old person has to be open enough to be able to recognize that somebody is interested, you know, And I think that and also to learn from the younger people because so this is another principle, basic principle that I think everybody needs to learn.

So you have to really understand your time period. You know, you have to act on the basis of what's happening right now in your time period, not what's what happened, you know, 50 years ago. Like, see, that's another danger of standing on the shoulders. You read a book about somebody who did something 50 years ago and you read all the the important principles and things that they came up with. But maybe it's not applicable to what's happening right now. Right. It it may be indirectly applicable, but maybe it's not directly applicable. Right. So it's really important for everybody to learn from and be engaged in what's happening right now. And so what that means for young people, obviously be engaged in what's happening right now. Right. But for old people also means like, okay, well, I was aware of what was happening when I was younger. I have to be engaged in what's happening right now, and that involves trying to understand what younger people are going through. Right? So the information and the collective memory is built in in multiple directions, right? Everybody has something incredibly valuable to contribute to this. So this is another principle. You know, So during the commission hearings, we tried to mobilize people to testify in front of the commission, and some people said, oh, my story is so trivial.

You know, I'm not an important person. I wasn't a leader, or I didn't do this or that, but I think what we learned is that everybody has something to contribute and they may not realize what it is. You know, you may think you're an average person and you're not in charge of anything, but you your experience is meaningful because it adds to this whole collective memory and because we're not all the same or diverse, your opinion really matters, and we need to hear it and everybody needs to hear it. And it adds to our intuition, right? So intuition, I think is kind of this ongoing subliminal processing of all this information that we get from all these different kinds of people. And if we have written off young people as monolithic and written off middle aged people as monolithic and written off old people as monolithic, then we're not we're not going to have very good intuition and we're not going to build this collective memory. And another thing that I think is really important is that the in the building of this collective memory, you're doing it in a particular community, you know, So if you're part of this community, there may be similarities with other communities, but it's not exactly the same, right? So it's something to be really aware of. I'm going up in this time period and I'm in this place that has this particular history and has these particular personalities that make it unique. And I'm part of it. You know? And so I think that's part of the shoulder thing.

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(Interviewer) So how did you build bridges with leaders in the Black, Native, Latinx communities?

Yeah, that's a really good question, and that's like a big challenge for all of us. I mean, it's a challenge for other communities and it's challenge for us. So one of the things that we learned is we have to have a strong identity ourselves, right? So that's part of this building, the collective memory. We have to know who we are in order to have a relationship with other people. Right? And so so we learn more and more about who we are in all our diversity in our group, the diversity inside of our group. Right. And then we learn about other people's history, like, you know, the don't exclude as program. We learned about Mexican repatriation, and we had speakers who whose parents had grown up working with Japanese Americans in the canneries. So we learn other people's histories, right? So that's really important because we don't want to treat other communities as a monolith either. We want to be because we understand we're not. We have to really be open minded and understand that, oh, we just met one Black person. And so all Black people are like that. You know, we have to really use our understanding of ourselves to to understand other people. So so one of the things that we've been trying to do is learn more about the history and the present of the different communities. You know, like so there are a lot of agencies actually in Santa Clara County, there are a lot of service agencies, nonprofits, and they represent different communities. So, you know, so one thing is kind of learning about their history and what do they do and what's their audience is what their clientele is.

But specifically, specifically, I think in this recent period, one of the the really important campaigns that we decided to work on is to build support in the Japanese American community for H.R. 40. So H.R. 40 is the federal bill that's sitting in Congress. Still hasn't been voted on, but it's for African American reparations. It's to create a commission to study reparations for African Americans and to recommend a proposal, recommend make recommendations. And I felt very strongly in like when when they're starting to be some momentum on H.R. 40, there were some hearings. Ta-Nehisi Coates wrote a really excellent Atlantic magazine article about the case for reparations. And and it started coming up. And and I felt like even though I think a lot of Japanese American redress activists support black reparations, I felt that we had to mobilize ourselves, our community, because, you know, as other people have said, you know, the model minority is so strong, it's so deeply embedded. And we kind of don't even see it sometimes. And it's kind of embedded in the Japanese American story, too. Right. So what I was really afraid of is, is some journalist was going to say, oh, you know, Japanese Americans want to be redress, so let's go interview them and stick a microphone in front of some guy's face. And without thinking about it, might say something really terrible.

Right. And that's happened, too. It's it's not you know, there have been Japanese Americans who've said really terrible things about reparations so for Black people. So so we started having discussions amongst ourselves and we tried to expand that to different community organizations in our Japanese American community here to talk about to remind people about our reparations, our reparations struggle. So younger generations weren't involved and they didn't know that much about it because it's been left out of the Japanese American story. So we talked about that. And then we started learning about reparations for slavery, like what is the basis like for black reparations organizations? What are they saying? You know what? How are they couching the the proposals for H.R. 40 and stuff like that? And so we started we had a program online. This was during the pandemic. Also, we had a program online about, you know, why should Japanese Americans support H.R. 40? And I participated in an ACLU panel on, you know, H.R. 40. And we started talking to other Japanese American organizations, mainly in Los Angeles, about that. And they started doing their own organizing work in there on their local level. And so there also was this really great film that John Ozaki of San Francisco produced this film called Reparations, and we showed it and we reached out to different Black people that we knew who were in organizations to see if they were interested. And we worked with Olivia Foster from the African American Community Services Agency and had him on a panel with San Jose Nikkei Resisters and the filmmaker. When we did this showing at the Silicon Valley Asian American Film Festival, and that was really successful. It was really positive responses. And we are now participating in a Santa Clara County wide coalition that's led by the African American Community Services Agency on reparations, both nationally and locally and on the state level.

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So when I was younger and didn't have kids, I was really busy. I was working full time. I was in the San Jose Taiko group, I was in the Nihonmachi Outreach Committee. And we also at different times did different things like the Asian Americans for Jesse Jackson and so, you know, I didn't have any responsibilities. I was I was just interested in it was my social life, you know, it was really fun. And when there was kind of a break because in so time I got married in 1984 and in 1989, Tom's father passed away. And then in shortly after that, in 1990, his mother passed away. And then the next year, in 1991, my father passed away. So we had this almost two year period of it was really sad. We were very depressed, and it was really difficult. But, you know, we wanted to have kids. So we had two kids, Tomio and Kiyoshi, in 1992 and 1995, and you know, mostly during that time we were working and taking care of our kids. It was pretty hard to do a lot of stuff. But in 95 was appointed to the CLPEF and that was the year that Kiyoshi was born. So that wasn't that demanding. It wasn't like every day or anything. But in 2000 was the attack on the World Trade Center.

And I think a lot of Japanese Americans, we felt like we had to hit the ground running because they started calling it Pearl Harbor. And I'm kind of getting emotional because it makes me so angry. They start going after Muslim Americans. And it was so familiar, you know, that just vitriol and hatred. And so I think a lot of Japanese Americans felt like they had to come out and show support and defend. You know, I think I guess this is just part of my personal trauma. It's not a big deal. But I guess it just it's always kind of bother me. These things. I don't think it's a terrible thing. But yeah, so that was a big turning point. And so the activity level kind of ramped up and it was it was difficult to manage community political activities and family and job. I think there also was we had a big struggle with the San Jose Unified School District over providing adequate and appropriate services to our child. Kiyoshi, who was diagnosed with dyslexia. And so that became a huge time sink in terms of just dealing with that issue and making sure that he learned how to read so yeah, so during that that time period, we weren't as active. We sometimes would go out and speak at events and stuff like that, but we didn't take main responsibility for an organization. So we kind of kept our hand in. We went to different events and we, we helped with certain types of activities, but we weren't shouldering the main load during that time period, which I guess I don't know. I guess maybe that's advice how to do that. But yeah, so we became more active as our children became more independent.

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When I was much younger, I, I felt very resentful that I didn't have any mentors. I think that so when I was younger, I don't think people thought about mentoring. I mean, you know, I think my I, I can't really say why I, I, I got a lot out of my parents, but I can't really say that they're my mentors or they're my parents. Right. I didn't have any mentors in college there. I didn't even have an advisor. And, you know, I was in a I was in an all-male field. There were no mentors for the one or two women. I could have really used a mentor at HP when I first started doing engineering by didn't have a mentor. So what I did was I tried to get as much out of my relationships or even just small contacts with people. I tried really hard to learn from other people. I tried to ask people questions and remember what they said and think about it. And so I don't usually think of myself as having a mentor. I think that when I was doing the redress and reparations work, there was a friend of mine who's just a couple of years older, but she got politically involved much younger than me.

So by the time I met her, she'd been, you know, politically involved for like seven or eight years, and she was kind of a mentor to me. She helped me grow. And it's funny, I was just kind of joking about it with some friends because we were talking about like, how do you pass down knowledge? Right? And I was joking, but this is really true. Like, so I remember I would go to my friend and her name is Joyce Nakamura, and I would complain to her. I'd say, You know, these people, they don't know anything. They're so stupid. You know, they they don't identify with being Japanese American or I'd have all these complaints, right? And she'd look at me and you go, “So?” That was really helpful because what she was communicating to me was that that doesn't matter, right? You can still do this thing. You can still organize these people, you can still have an impact. Other people don't have to be perfect in order for you to have an impact. You know, things don't have to all line up in a perfectly ideologically consistent way in order for us to build something and to have an impact on other people.

And so, yeah, so I guess she was kind of a mentor to me. I think some of the other people that are that I would think of are some of the the a couple of the Nisei that we worked with in the redress movement. Sue, I told you, she was not a conventional mentor, but she was very open to telling us her story and she participated in all our meetings. She was like a moral force, and she had never gone to college. So a lot of us, you know, we knew how to make agendas in minutes and do all these things right. But she provided this other kind of leadership. She also provided the opportunity for us to realize certain things, like, for instance, her kids didn't support her activist some right. And for some of us, our parents weren't excited about what we were doing, but we still had that intergenerational kind of familial, almost, you know, support because of, you know, people like Sue and people like Mitsukoshi Yama, who is probably fairly well known as a draft resister from Heart Mountain, but he was just by being himself, he just his personality and being so supportive and open and respectful and, you know I think that that was my relationship with those people was very helpful to me, I think. Oh, also, I think I think a lot of the young people who've been involved in San Jose Nikkei resistors, including our son Tomio, I feel like are have kind of mentored us on helping us develop our understanding of the the diversity of young people.

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Well, so I think that I think that we are currently we're kind of in a slow-motion apocalypse. Sometimes I think about, you know, like what was happening in Germany before World War II. I think there were a terrible things going on. But people a lot of people went to their jobs, you know, and had their family birthday party. I mean, there was a certain normalcy to it. And same way right now, I think there's a certain normalcy to what's going on. People have jobs, people have their lives and whatever. But there's but we're heading towards climate catastrophe, right? We also have this incredible conflict that's coming to a head in terms of the growth of very authoritarian and fascistic thinking. But we also have a growing strength among people of color demographically and also, I think, politically. Right. So I think that there's we're in very dangerous times. You know, the U.S. is very heavily armed. Right? It is. It's very dangerous. It's very violent. You know, so I think that it's really important for us to be able to put all these things together.

Right. So we need to build up our identity. We need to be strong, and we need to fight back against all the forces that are trying to erase us and erase our understanding of who we are. We need to unite our people and mobilize. We need to be able to connect with other people. And we need to. I think the the big overarching task and there's a lot of side that are related to this, but the big overarching task is we need to build a multiracial democracy, right? So I think some people, you know, they look at the Bill of Rights and they go, oh, well, it's there in the piece of paper. But I think that we've never really had one. We've we've had voter suppression, we've had Jim Crow, we've had, you know, deportations of. So I think we've never had it. We're moving towards that. We're trying to build towards that. And and I think that we need to be more conscious of that. Right? So inside of that broader goal and that broader movement, there's different roles that people play right? Because because you got to raise your kids or you got to keep, you know, food on the table and stuff like that, you know, And not everybody can do everything right.

Actually, nobody can do everything. So you kind of got to choose, right? So what we've kind of chosen to do is try to organize Japanese Americans to play a role in building this multiracial democracy. Right. And so a big part of it is clarifying and fighting the model minority strategy. The model minority strategy is one of the the most potent tools of white supremacy, like, which is kind of amazing, right? Like, I don't think people thought about that like 30 years ago. Model Minority was like this irritating, terrible, you know, stereotype. But I think it actually is playing a huge role in maintaining white supremacy because it it tells it tells white people that there's a natural animosity between Asian Americans and Black people. Right. And it promotes that. It promotes that view. Whether you like that or don't like that, you know, and it promotes distrust between people of color. And so I think that to to build a multiracial democracy, we have to clarify and fight against the model minority strategy. I feel like Japanese Americans have a particular role to play. I think the model minority strategy was built on our backs during World War II and the time immediately following that.

And so I think that we have the potential for being able to see it as clearly as possible, although because it's built on our backs, it's also a big cloud around our heads, right? So I feel like that's our role and it's very challenging. I think that, you know, one of the things that very negative things have been happening in the last number of years is I think a lot of people have felt like, oh, Japanese American history is done, it's over, it's boring, you know, it's set. But I think we need to rip it apart and take all the model minority stuff out and try to re reconstitute it in a way that will strengthen us in playing this role, in fighting the model minority strategy and in building the multiracial democracy. So I think that's really important. And I think that it so Tom and I have talked about this thing that we call being in JA jail, which is Japanese American jail. It's like this mental jail where you are confined by the history. You might be really into it, but you're kind of confined by it to a subordinate role, you know, to kind of being on the sidelines that you can't be involved in these broader struggles. But I think that we need to get ourselves out of that jail. And, you know, we're we're just as good as other people, but no better. We're equal. You know, we want to play that role. So, yeah, so I think that's the biggest issue.

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Yeah. You know, it's it's, it's always been kind of an interesting contradiction. Like people have to keep the both of these things in their head. So the model minority strategy has people praising the hell out of us. Oh, you guys are so great. You're so smart, you're so hardworking, you know, you're so honorable, you know, stuff. And at the same time, you know, you’re totally expendable. You know, like like we can we can rally hatred against you and violent scapegoating at the drop of a hat. You know, it's like both of these things exist simultaneously. And they're they're happening simultaneously, right? So it's really important to be able to understand this contradictory, complex, but very real situation. Right. I think a lot of people there's this kind of mental infantilization that goes on where you just got to simplify things down. So you'll see people, they have their favorite issue, which is, you know, they don't ever talk about the model minority, but they only talk about anti-Asian hate. And other people talk about this, but they don't about, you know, So I think you got to do all of that. You got to take into account all of that and come up with a strategy that addresses all of it.

You know, I don't know how this is probably not that momentous or anything, but over and over again, I found this little piece of advice that my dad gave me when I was a kid that is really comes in handy and makes you smarter. So I remember my dad said he said an intelligent person reserves judgment. And what that means is you don't just jump on, you don't just jump on your knee jerk reaction. You don't just dismiss like entire groups of people because of this analysis. You don't you don't just, you know, yeah. Reject certain viewpoints outright because it doesn't mesh with your own. I mean, I think the reserving judgment means you have to investigate. Not only do you have to investigate facts, you have to investigate feelings. You have to investigate motivations and where people are coming from. And then you have to let things come out. You know, you can't you can't assume that, you know, I've got all the facts. I need to make a final judgment right now. You know, a lot of times things will emerge in the work, right? Like like you don't know immediately and other people don't know how they feel about certain things. And so you have to you have to allow for things to come out and to grow and to develop. So reserving judgment and being open minded and able to change your mind, those are really important things. I, I think that sometimes when people are learning an analysis or learning an ideology and how that applies to all the facts around them, sometimes it's easy to get kind of rigid about it. So I think that it's not like learning these things isn't important, but it's really important to apply it to the time period that you're in and to be flexible and to, you know, be open to changing your mind, to reserve judgment.